I love Jane Truitt. She’s a rather obscure artist from the 70’s, and while I’ve never seen a piece of her work, I’ve read her journal and feel that I’ve seen the mind behind the sculpture.
One of my favorite things she wrote was about the loneliness of being an artist. Even with friendships and beloveds around, eventually, you go to the canvas or clay alone, and must make the choices and decisions alone. She compared it to the pony express riders, who delivered the mail. Some late rainy nights, they came off their horses to the warmth of a kettle and a cup of tea in the home of a friend or stranger, but in the back of their mind, they knew the long ride was still ahead, and they must make it alone.
Whether you are an artist or not, you know something about the lonely ride in a dark night with the rain whipping your hair across your face. It might be a literal long night holding a sick child, or the still wait in a hospital waiting room, or a long silence beside a phone or unreturned text, or a calling you know is yours but seems daunting, or a courageous stand you’ve been urged to take, but will likely stand alone in. Sometimes it’s the battle for anxious thoughts to be surrendered in the quiet of a stilled house. Sometimes, it’s the relentless chore of simple daily fidelities. But in any case, you feel alone, vulnerable, and forgotten, and the walls are closer than you wanted them to feel.
I imagine Joseph felt something similar down in the pit. And Jonah inside the big fish. The three young men who stood in defiance of Nebuchadnezzer likely felt it. Mary must have felt it when she missed her period, and had not been with a man. And another Mary, when she first felt the nudge to take her jar of perfume to break open on the Savior. And the Savior, when he was in Gethsemenee, He felt it too.
Into the silence, and the loneliness, and the dark night, let me remind you what our Father has said in His revealed word:
“...the young woman is with child and shall bear a son, and they shall call His name, Immanuel, which means “GOD WITH US”. Matt. 1:23
“...I am with you always, even to the end of the earth.” Matt. 28:20
“...nothing shall separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Rom 8:39
“...I will counsel you with my eye upon you.” Psalms 32:8
“...Christ IN YOU, the hope of glory.” Col. 1:27
“...though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will not fear, for You are with me...” Psalms 23:4
“...I will never leave you, or forsake you...” Hebrews 13:5
“...He who sent me is with me, and will not leave me alone...” John 8:29
You are not alone. Sometimes there is a ride you must make by yourself, but you will never be alone.
See you along the way.